sachin lamesh

You said something to me that has stayed with me more than anything else: “You deserve better.” You didn’t say it cruelly. You didn’t say it angrily. You said it softly—like someone trying to shield another person from pain. And for a long time, I accepted it without question. But silence has a way of transforming gentle words into heavy thoughts. Because if I truly deserved better, I kept wondering— Why was that “better” never you? Choosing isn’t compromising I never saw you as a compromise. I never stayed because I was afraid of being alone. I didn’t choose you out of habit, convenience, or weakness. I chose you deliberately. I chose your peace. Your stillness. Your careful distance. Even the parts of you that didn’t open easily. When you say I deserve better, it sounds kind—but it also sounds like a quiet way of backing away without saying so. As if I was worthy of care, but not worthy of choice. What love meant to me Love, at least the way I experienced it, was never about comparin...

The Day That Hurt Me the Most   I want to write about something that has been sitting heavy in my heart. It is not easy to talk about but maybe writing it will help me understand what I am feeling. On December 10 2025 I sent her a simple message. I told her that I wanted to leave the group because I did not want to make her uncomfortable. I thought I was doing the right thing by stepping away. I was not expecting anything from her. I only wanted peace for both of us. I wrote to her in a very calm and honest way and I thought she would understand my intention. But her reply surprised me and broke something inside me. She said she does not want to see me and she does not want to talk to me anymore. She also said she has a boyfriend and she asked me not to follow her. When I read those words I felt a strong pain in my chest. It was a moment where everything went silent inside me. I did not know how to react because I never thought she would speak to me like that. I always respected...