SACHIN LAMESH

  A Goodbye I Never Wanted Beginning  There are some people in life who come like a blessing. They do not just stay as a name on the phone or a face on the screen. They become a part of your daily life, a part of your thoughts, a part of your happiness. For me, Jenny was that person. From the beginning, she was special. Not because she did something big, but because she was simple, calm, mature, and understanding. She always listened, she always replied kindly, even when I acted childish. With her, I felt free. With her, I felt safe. With her, I felt like I had a true good friend. But today, as I write this, my heart is heavy. Jenny is no longer my friend. She blocked me on Instagram. She told me there are no more chances. And I know the reason—because of me, my behavior, my overthinking, my immaturity. This blog is not written to force her. It is not written to ask again. It is only my diary of feelings, my truth. If she ever reads this, she should know: I always saw her...

When Silence Speaks: A Story of Feeling Left Out and Choosing Respect Life often teaches us lessons in quiet, subtle ways. Not through arguments or fights, not through grand gestures, but through small, almost invisible moments that leave a mark on your heart. Recently, I experienced one such moment. Everyone was in a private server — chatting, laughing, sharing stories, and building memories together. I was not there. I wasn’t invited. I felt outside that small circle of connection, standing silently on the edge. That feeling, though simple, cut deeper than I expected. There’s something innate in humans to want to belong. To be included. To be seen. To be appreciated. And in that moment, I realized I felt none of those things. I quietly thought, maybe no one in the group likes me. That thought alone hurt like a small, constant throb in my chest. I wanted to complain. I wanted to ask why I wasn’t included. I wanted to feel wanted. But I stopped myself. I reminded myself that respe...

 she Started Ignoring Me – My Story About Shy There are moments in life when silence hurts more than words. For me, that silence came from Shy. She was not just another person I met online; she became one of the most important parts of my days, my thoughts, and my emotions. When she started ignoring me, it felt like a part of me was fading away. This is my story, my truth, and my heart’s way of letting everything out. The Beginning When I first started talking to Shy, things were light and simple. We laughed, we shared little pieces of our lives, and I found myself waiting for her messages every day. Her words gave me comfort, and even on my worst days, one message from her could make everything better. She was different. Confident, calm, sometimes playful, and sometimes strict. She had that balance I always admired. I used to call her my “idol” because I truly looked up to her. She carried herself with grace, and I felt lucky that someone like her was even talking to me. I wa...

I Am Toxic, But I Loved Shy I don’t usually write things like this, but today I want to write honestly about myself. Not the good parts, not the fake happy picture, but the truth. The truth is that I can be toxic. And if I look back at my journey with Shy, I can clearly see how my emotions sometimes crossed the line. This is not just about blaming myself. This is about confessing, accepting, and trying to understand who I really am. Meeting Shy and How Everything Started When I first started talking with Shy, I never imagined she would become so important in my life. She was calm, confident, and always carried herself with grace. She was stylish, rich, admired by many, and different from me in so many ways. But at the same time, she was approachable, soft in her words, and friendly. For me, she became more than just an online friend. She became my safe space, my idol, my inspiration. I started calling her “shy and dove” because she reminded me of peace and beauty. Slowly, our cha...

 "First Love, Lasting Lessons: Embracing Growth, Gratitude, and Friendship with Shy" After months of understanding, learning, and growing, I have reached a point where I can look back at my journey with Shy with clarity and peace. The path was not easy. I experienced hope, love, jealousy, misunderstandings, and finally, rejection. But each emotion taught me something important. I realized that love is not about possession. It is about respect, care, and understanding. Even though Shy did not return my feelings romantically, I learned that love can still exist in friendship. True care does not require romance—it requires honesty, support, and presence. After Shy rejected me, I focused on myself. I worked on my studies, my goals, and personal growth. I learned that my happiness cannot depend entirely on someone else. By building my own life and improving myself, I felt stronger and more confident. My emotions became calmer, and I could appreciate Shy’s friendship without lon...

 "Life After Rejection: Growing Stronger, Embracing Friendship, and Finding Balance with Shy" After learning to accept Shy’s decision, my life slowly began to change. The sadness didn’t vanish completely, but it became manageable. I realized that moving on was not about erasing my feelings; it was about finding balance, focusing on my own growth, and appreciating the connection I still had with Shy as a friend. I started paying more attention to myself—my studies, hobbies, and daily routines. I discovered that spending time improving myself made me feel more confident and grounded. My emotions, once tangled with longing, began to settle into clarity. I understood that my happiness could not depend solely on someone else, even someone as important as Shy. Our friendship remained a source of comfort. I could laugh with her, share small joys, and support her dreams without any expectation of romance. Each conversation reminded me that meaningful connections can exist in diffe...

"Finding Strength After Rejection: Embracing Friendship, Growth, and Quiet Love for Shy" After Shy rejected my romantic feelings, I felt a mix of sadness, relief, and reflection. At first, it was hard to accept. I had loved her quietly and deeply, and suddenly I had to let go of the dream I had built in my heart. But over time, I realized that moving on didn’t mean forgetting her—it meant understanding the situation, respecting her decision, and learning from the experience. The first step in moving on was accepting reality. I reminded myself that love cannot be forced, and feelings cannot be demanded. Shy had been honest, kind, and clear about her boundaries. I had to honor that honesty by letting go of my expectations and focusing on our friendship instead. I started redirecting my thoughts and emotions. Instead of imagining a romantic future with her, I focused on what I could appreciate in the present: our conversations, our shared laughter, and the support we gave eac...

 "Embracing Friendship After Rejection: Learning Patience, Respect, and Quiet Love for Shy" After spending so much time with Shy, sharing thoughts, jokes, and little joys, I had to face a truth I had been avoiding—Shy would never feel the same way I did. I had loved her quietly, deeply, and honestly, but she made it clear that she could not return my romantic feelings. Her rejection was calm, kind, and honest. She didn’t want to hurt me, and she wanted to continue our friendship. But hearing those words for the first time felt like a heavy weight on my chest. Every hope I had built in my mind—every imagined future, every shared dream—had to be set aside. At first, I felt sadness, disappointment, and even a little jealousy. It was natural; I had invested so much emotion, and now I realized it wouldn’t be reciprocated. I remembered all the moments I had imagined us together—late-night conversations, shared songs, laughter, and small victories—and I had to accept that those d...

 "Patience, Quiet Care, and Emotional Growth: Cherishing My Online Friendship with Shy" As my online friendship with Shy continued, I noticed how much patience had become a part of my life. Before, I would feel restless whenever she didn’t reply quickly or when she was busy with other friends. Now, I understood that her life existed outside our chats, and that was okay. Patience wasn’t just waiting—it was trusting, caring, and respecting her space. Even small messages from her could brighten my day. A simple “good morning,” a shared song, or a funny comment became moments I looked forward to. I realized that the value of our friendship wasn’t measured by frequency, but by the quality of these small interactions. Shy taught me more about communication than I ever expected. Sometimes she was clear and direct; other times, she was gentle and careful with her words. I learned to read between the lines, understand her moods, and respond thoughtfully. This helped me grow—not onl...

 "Quiet Bonds and Gentle Care: Embracing Patience and Respect in My Online Friendship with Shy" By this time, my online friendship with Shy had grown quietly but steadily. Even though we had never met in person, I felt connected to her in ways that sometimes surprised me. Our chats had become a part of my daily life—talking about school, books, songs, and little everyday things that mattered to her. I realized that even simple conversations could create a deep bond. One thing I learned about her was her love for her favorite bird, a sparrow . She would mention it in our chats sometimes, describing how it reminded her of calm mornings and peaceful moments. Listening to her talk about it, I felt her gentle personality more clearly. Little details like this made her real to me, not just a name on a screen. I also noticed how thoughtful she was. She remembered small things I said, shared songs she liked, and often asked about my day. These gestures were small, but they carried...

"Quiet Connection and Mutual Growth: Nurturing Friendship and Respect in My Bond with Shy" By now, my friendship with Shy had grown stronger. Even though she was my online friend, I felt close to her through our chats. We talked about school, books, songs, and everyday little things. I learned to enjoy these moments without expecting anything more. I noticed small details about her that made her unique. The way she expressed her thoughts, the songs she liked, the way she shared small joys—everything showed her personality. Even though she lived far away, I could feel her care through her messages. Sometimes I felt sad when she didn’t reply quickly or when she was busy with others. Before, this would make me anxious or jealous. But now, I learned to be patient. I realized that trust and understanding are more important than constant attention . Loving someone doesn’t mean controlling them—it means respecting their life and choices. I also saw my own growth. I learned to ma...

"Balanced Love and Friendship: Growing Through Patience, Space, and Emotional Maturity with Shy" After learning to give Shy space and manage my feelings, our friendship started to feel more balanced. I realized that love doesn’t always mean being together all the time. Sometimes, it’s about growing together while living separate lives . I focused on improving myself. I studied harder, paid attention to my health, and explored hobbies I had ignored before. Each small success made me feel confident. I learned that I could be happy independently , without needing constant attention from Shy. At the same time, I stayed close to her in small ways. I sent messages to ask about her day, shared interesting songs or books, and congratulated her on achievements. I learned that even small actions matter when showing care. Sometimes, I felt a little lonely. I missed her jokes, laughter, and the long conversations we used to have. But instead of feeling frustrated, I reminded myself t...

 Quiet Love: Growing Through Patience, Space, and Emotional Maturity with Shy" After spending so much time with Shy, I started to see that love is not always about being close all the time. Sometimes, love is about giving space . I learned that if I tried to control her time or attention, it only made things harder. I wanted to be close, but I also wanted her to feel free. I began to focus more on myself. I studied more seriously, read books, and worked on my hobbies. This helped me feel stronger and more independent. I realized that I could be happy even if Shy was busy or not replying quickly. My happiness did not have to depend on her. Even though I was trying to let go a little, it was not easy. Sometimes, I missed her attention, her jokes, and our small talks. But I told myself that missing her is normal , and it doesn’t mean I am failing. It just means I care. I also noticed that Shy appreciated small things more than big gestures. A short message, a shared song, or askin...

  "Balanced Love: Growing Through Friendship, Patience, and Emotional Independence with Shy" After the period of overthinking and learning patience, I realized that my connection with Shy had changed. It was no longer just about emotions; it had become a balanced friendship , rooted in understanding and care. I discovered that sometimes, the strongest love is expressed through friendship rather than constant romantic pursuit. I focused on being a reliable friend . I didn’t need her attention to feel validated. Instead, I made sure she knew she could count on me when she needed support. Whether it was helping with studies, sharing a book recommendation, or simply listening to her thoughts, I wanted to be present without pressure. At the same time, I worked on my own growth . I dedicated more time to my studies, hobbies, and personal development. Each achievement I made, small or large, became a reminder that I could thrive independently while still caring for Shy. This gave...